Hmmm suddenly wanted to blog... but dun know what to blog... heez...

Suddenly feel so tired to do anything... I'm so tired to upkeep my life... so tired of moving on... ha...

Suppose to met Sun last week... Too bad she gave it a miss cos she cut her leg... hope she is alright... anyway... she went to drink with him and her after that... damn disappointed about it thou... damn damn dissapointed... but i'm so tired to feel anything...

I'm so tired to be happy to smile... to be sad and cry... to be angry and curse... I'm so so tired about my life... to do anything... I'm just damn lazy suddenly...

Ha dun worry about me... I just need to disappear only... hmm Good idea... I'll do that... heez... here it goes... *Disappear*...

Sad music video. Made me cry.

Met Rohit just now after funeral... Suppose to catch a movie and get my phone... But the movie I wanna watch is not showing and have weird time slot... So we have to give it a miss... He rush down to meet me and I really appreciate it...

Went to M1 to have a look and wait for him at the meanwhile... Its so pack my god... Everyone is so rich to buy a phone suddenly... There he came... I told him I dun wanna wait let's get the phone some other day... He told me to get it over and done with... This is the first spark that hit me saying that hey he wanna get it done with you... So we go ahead... Although we are trying to be normal... Somehow or rather I feel that he just meet me for the sake of meeting me...

Whenever I got to know his whereabout or things like... He always have time for other people... For me is excuses after excuses... This is serious how I feel... With me he will make sure we dun catch late night show... with me he make sure he go home early... with me he make sure he send me home in my dreams... Today he is too initiative to queue up for me for the queue number for the phone and the dinner... It makes me feels like he just wanna rush things over...

In the bus I'm really very disappointed why I'm still so work up... I shouldn't feel a thing and just shrug my shoulder and that's it... In the end... I send a msg to him... saying that I wont be contacting him anymore... On surface it may seems materialistic that I got the phone and I just disappear... I just wanna have something from him to keep... cause to think of it... he onli gave me Zara and the phone i lost and nothing else... At least i got this phone as a memory sake...

I dun think he is sentimental... He lost the zippo and slam the phone... i think soon the xbox will disappear also... then i'll disappear also.. then in the long run he will forget who is lynn... ha wat a joke... this is really a joke i can only cry about...

Don't bother to come and ask me what happen... I just wanna write out my thoughts and emotion...